I Spend More Time Crying Than Testing..

From the bathroom I write this - where I spend most my time.  As I sit on the toilet for the past 25minutes. The uncut truths. Knowing a whole community relies on me and I still can’t find my happiness - as I haven’t got my positive + result. I keep it together to enable you all to stay positive through a journey so sensitive as this.
Crying back to back. But why? It’s still too early to test but I do it anyway. Knowing the outcome. Knowing it’s going to read ‘negative’. I struggle my way through day by day. Especially during these TWW (two week wait) - it’s depresses me. I must keep going - nothing worth having is not worth the fight.